Ifs

If I had not covered up my seizure experience and tick "No" to "Have you ever had a history of seizure?" when filling up the mandatory online questionaire prior to my pre-enlistment checkup, I would have downgraded myself from the current PES A to PES C.

If I had not dreamt of going to Officer Cadet School (OCS) and aspired to become a high-ranking Officer (and earn big bucks), I would not have covered up my histroy of seizure.

If I was not disillusioned and appalled by the behaviours of the Officers in my BMT company, I would not have tick "No" to "Do you wish to become an Officer?" during the express of interest.

If I had (somehow) entered OCS, I would be able to enjoy the prestige and respect people have for Officers. Even if I ended up becoming a Specialist, I still get to enjoy some sort of prestge and respect, though not as much as what the Officers are entitled to.

If I had known that my clearance is high enough for me to enter Air Force, I would have indicated interest in command school, for I know my life as a commander would be in the good hands of the Air Force.

But "if" is a word upon which history pivots into hypothesis. What happened happened.

I never regret my decision of becoming a lowly, humble corporal.