不约而同

Immediately after the Biology Paper 1 examination ended, I smsed my good friends (who all happen to take Bio except me) on their thoughts about being liberated from examinations and studies. Here are their responses:

Kay Siong: numb.

Ming Wei: haha. not much feeling lor...haha. ma mu le...

Ying Cheng: Ha ha no feeling leh. Played too much during A levels le.

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This is "不约而同" at its best. This is probably a display of the highest level of friendship -- our souls and mind converge, unite and have similar feelings, thoughts and opinions. Like how nations belonging to the European Union function -- their economic and political systems are almost integrated and homogeneous, but not quite there yet as each country still has run on its own independent system. The highest level of friendship has each individual in this friendship having almost identical thoughts and emotions, but each still have their own unqiue behaviour.

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Yet, I find their feelings ironic. The problem does not lie with them but within me. I have anticipated their responses and when reality does not match anticipation, I became confused. I had expected them to leave their examination venue the last time with much mirth, throw their arms in air with much ecstasy, cheer "Hip! Hip! Hooray" three times and throw confetti.

But alas! They probably left the examination venue with a poker face. They are listless about the end of examinations. They are not excited about the OFFICIAL END of examinations.

Yeah, some of you may say so what's the big deal about people not feeling excited over the end of examinations? I agree, it's not a big deal. Yet somehow deep down in my heart I am still shocked.

It's like I couldn't even understand how my best friends think. It's a disappointment -- disappointed that their reactions are different from what I had guessed, disappointed that we cannot share the same enthusiasm together, disappointed that the three of them share the same feeling but I am the odd one out.

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Or is it a thing for BCME students? Do subject combinations really have a part to play in morphing students into different personalities? It seems that many PCME students looked forward to the end of examinations, but BCME students are nonchalant about acquiring this ticket to a decadent life?

I don't know how to handle such widening gap between us. "Us" refers to me and my best friends, and me and my other friends pursuing a different passion form me whom I used to be close with.

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Our first outing after A's will be a cycling session at Sentosa this coming Monday.