非自然行为

These few weeks I was involved in the Artemis Musical. Its very hard to imagine me participating in this, becoz normally I dun give a damn about Faculty initiatives. After persuasion from yien and weizhong, i reluctantly agreed to join.

The process I must say was fun and boring, irony eh? haha, sometimes it gets really sianed, esp when u haf no on u noe also in the play. And I realised sometimes different people from different 'societies' just wouldn't mix. No common topic, no common interest.. even the music we listen is different. I am from a very chinese background, and the friends I noe mostly are PRCs or ex PRCs, and the CCAs i am in(or was in), huang cheng and CO. lol. It seems like I confined myself too much into my own world. Its very scary, I can be very noisy and funny with my own world, but when it comes to another environment, I can dun speak for hours during our rehearsals. Thats the main reason why I dun really enjoyed the rehearsals.

-- From Dao Teng's journal entry "Artemis Musical"

你可以说是我们心胸太狭窄，不够开怀，不愿离开自己熟悉的小小世界去认识那令你感到无比的陌生与孤寂的外头。

但是，话不投机半句多。

When we cannot "click", we just cannot "click".

人与人之间的关系，跟爱情一般，勉强撮合一段关系是不会有任何的结果与幸福。还是顺其自然吧!

更何况，当初把心里的那扇门紧紧封闭的是你们，结果现在你们却突然敞开心门，坦荡荡的、潇洒的、带有一点愧疚的说要接受我们这些当初被你们拒绝于门外的人。这份后知后觉和醒悟，恐怕来得太迟了。

当初你们紧掩你们的门户，如今我们也对你们心灰意冷，不仅也封上了自个儿的心胸，还加上了一道锁。

话又说回来，也不能怪他们当初对于我们的忽略，因为毕竟我们都是属于两个不同世界的人。

We just don't "click"!

但他们现在的“非自然行为”确实令我感到反感。因为这是一种肤浅、敷衍的表现。

再说，他们从表态要敞开他们的心胸，要容纳其他人，迄今却不见实际的表现。

果然是肤浅、敷衍。

朋友其实可分为两大类别：知心朋友和酒肉朋友

要彼此成为知己，需要一点缘分，强求不来。若成为不了知己，就将对方当成酒肉朋友咯，就负责在我肚子饿时陪我吃饭。

他们说要容纳我们，我是会给予他们一次机会，但是若我觉得我们真的不属于彼此的世界，还是分道扬镳，当酒肉朋友比较恰当。