25 May 2008

四个朋友

这篇文章就献给我生命中最要好的三个朋友:Kay Siong (谢凯祥), Ying Cheng (颜颖正) and Ming Wei (李明威)。

不知看官是否和我一样,好朋友是四人一组的。

像Desperate Housewives 和 《欲望城市》(Sex and The City) 里的四位女主角一样,尽管性格上有明显的落差,但四个人也有着说不出的共同点,是让他们成为好友的关键。四个人十分了解彼此的习性,也常聚会,所聊的话题百无禁忌,畅所欲言。

当然,四个人是否像剧中女主角那般放荡、潇洒,那就因人而异。应该说因不同的“好友群”而有所差别。

我在中学一年级时就认识Kay Siong, Ying Cheng和Ming Wei。我们究竟是如何阴差阳错地成为好朋友,至今仍是我们在念旧时所讨论的话题。我认为,原因很简单,也和单纯,我们所有的那说不出的共同点,就是关键。

现在回想起我们当初所干过的事,还是会忍不住“噗”一声,发出尴尬的傻笑。尽管有时我们还会憎恨自己当初的愚蠢,但是我们还是庆幸我们当初愚蠢,让我们现在有共同美好的回忆,是我们的友谊在7年来屹立不倒的主因。

当时小歌后孙燕姿重新翻唱经典老歌《橄榄树》,我们也跟风。四个人合力演唱,还加入夸张的手势,让原本带有忧伤情调的歌曲变得爆笑十足。

《橄榄树》从此就成为了我们的“代表作品”,是我们决定“组团”成为“H4”的催化剂,欲复制台湾超人气美型男团体F4的成功例子。

尽管到后来我们再也没有发表过任何“作品”,但我们还是称自己为“H4”。

我们也曾经在圣淘沙岛胡闹过:玩“大老二”的最输者,得接受让人超级尴尬的惩罚。惩罚项目包括:对着巴士司机做"Star Jumps"、当街对着路标大跳钢管舞、在众目睽睽之下匍匐前进。。。等。

写到此刻,我又“噗”了一声,嘴角微扬。

我们最初认识彼此的时候,是因为大家都加入了学校的圣约翰救伤队,从此在机缘巧合,阴差阳错下成为了好朋友。至今我还是认为,我们四个人到后来之所以会被受到提拔,代表学校参加一年一度新加坡圣约翰救伤队所举办的竞技比赛,关键在于我们当时“势不可挡”的友情,而我们本身对于救伤的知识并非主因。

早期,我们的娱乐非常简单,不就是看场电影,到电动中心玩电动游戏,连用膳也是朴素地到小贩中心或是购物商场内的食阁解决。慢慢地我们长大了,娱乐的选择也变得多了。我们四个人约出来,依旧有去看电影,但到电动中心玩电动游戏的次数就明显减少了,用膳时也经常选择餐馆。现在,我们常做的,包括到KTV唱歌、在特定的时间吃自助餐、到酒吧畅饮几杯、打麻将、一齐烹煮午餐、一齐在母亲节前夕为自己的母亲烘制爱心蛋糕。。。等等,娱乐活动越来越能反映我们年龄的增长。

越来越多成人世界里的活动,更让我觉得我们像极了Desperate Housewives 和 《欲望城市》(Sex and The City) 里的四位女主角。

我们7年来的友谊也并非一帆风顺。我们曾经也有过争执,例如: 在2005年11月的一场欢送会(详情请阅:Details)、依稀记得Kay Siong和Ying Cheng曾经不知何故(应该是为了芝麻绿豆的琐事)起了争执。

好像只有这两起比较“大规模”的争执。Not bad for a seven-year friendship!

7年了,我们还是彼此生命中最要好,也是最重要的朋友(至少我是这么认为)。对此,我真的很感动,也很庆幸。我觉得我是幸运的,7年下来我们的友谊带给了我不少的欢笑,让我的中学生涯增添了不少色彩。

现在,我们在计划ORD后的“毕业旅行”,以及大学时是否要“共处一室”。

真的很高兴我能有你们当我的好朋友。

19 May 2008

Handwriting Analysis

Welcome Terence Heng, here is your handwriting analysis.



Most people with a severe leftward slant have some type of childhood trauma they have yet to work through. Since we didn't actually "see the writing", we can't tell if he actually has a hard left emotional slant, but if so... he has issues with trust and it is likely rooted in childhood.

Terence has withdrawn into himself. He is reserved and shows his feelings only at times of great anger, extreme passion, or tremendous stress. Terence is an introvert. He makes decisions based on logic, therefore he is rarely impulsive. He doesn't find any need for expressing his emotions. In fact, he probably sees this emotional expression as an unnecessary waste of time. He has a hard time relating to an extreme extrovert, although it is common for him to be attracted to one. Many people do not understand Terence; it is difficult for them to really know how Terence feels. Terence enjoys being alone, and probably prefers working alone. Working with his hands is a pleasure.

Terence's basic nature is to look out for himself first. Although he can and does feel emotions, perhaps as deeply as anyone, he just almost always harbors them inside.

The first time someone angers Terence, he probably will not say anything to that person at that time. However, he will mentally keep track of everything this person does wrong to him until he cannot hold his emotions inside any longer. Then; Boom! Terence will cloud up and rain all over them. And he will never regret telling someone off, because he knew what he was saying the entire time. He won't impulsively tell someone off.

Emotional stories will not sway Terence. He thinks totally with judgment, first considering every situation by the effect it will have on him.

Terence needs space and time alone. He will be much more efficient if given a job alone, rather than being surrounded by people.



People that write very large tend to be very social and friendly. It seems Terence has this type of writing. This indicates a need for people and a particular natural ability to socialize and be the life of the party. Now, if Terence also has specific fears (like fear of criticism or fear of trust) then he will deny he is the life of the party, because fear has overcome his natural inclination to be social. People with large handwriting tend to be effective at anything that requires interaction with lots of people. he is a people person.



Terence will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Terence believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.



Terence will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!



In reference to Terence's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Terence slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Terence can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.



Terence is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Terence basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.



Something is incomplete in Terence's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Terence's sexual needs.



For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Terence has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Terence fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Terence has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Terence is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Terence would like to leave the past behind and move on.

16 May 2008

咖啡

咖啡因在陶瓷杯子里,
作祟,戏弄泡沫了的
回忆,在陶瓷杯子里旋转,溶解。

香气袅袅,模糊了镜片。
我细细地品尝一口香醇,
清醒了我对我的失忆
与视线的朦胧
的认知。咖啡因继续作祟。

11 May 2008

死情

在死神的面前,
我跪下来向你求婚。

一束白色的玫瑰花,给你。
花瓣已经泛黄。

在第一片花瓣摇摇欲坠之际,
死神pronounce us husband and wife。

徘徊在距离地面12层楼的屋檐上,
我们手牵着手,数着夜空里的
星星,一闪一闪亮晶晶。

我看见好多好多的星星,你呢?
然后死神pronounce us dead at 10:29PM。

恶魔不认识我

我差点以为我死掉了。

手心冒汗,
脚板冰冷,
脖子发烫,
心跳加速,
脾胃绞痛,
胸口刺痛,
耳听鸣声,
眼见飞蚊,
视线模糊。

眼前有一道光芒,
却又很快地在刺鼻的药水味和众人的嚷嚷声中
变成了黑暗。

才惊觉连恶魔也不认识我。

Happy Mothers' Day!

04 May 2008

Countdown

5 weeks down, 9 more weeks to go.

01 May 2008

嘴巴和屁股

“来!莉卿,进来!别怕!不会痛的。放轻松,不会有事的。。。”

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“咦!黄嫂!你女儿去看牙医啊?”

“Heh Loh! 她的一颗乳牙松脱了,不就带她到牙医那儿让他把牙齿给拔掉?所以你看她现在嘴巴里得含着一片棉花。”

“哇!你还带她到牙医那儿啊?现在的医药费不是很贵吗?你怎么舍得一点小事就带孩子去看医生?”

“妈妈!你看电视。。。”

“哎呀,王太!你都已经是2个小孩的妈了,又不是不了解。所谓,“身体发肤,受之父母”啊!我当然要给我女儿最好的一切。总不能要我亲手将她的牙齿给拔出来吧?花在女儿身上的这一点钱,都是值得的!”

“你可就好了,你和你先生俩都在外头工作,一个家庭就有两个人在撑在养。不像我,只是个家庭主妇,整个家只靠我先生那微薄的收入过日子,哪儿来的钱能提供给孩子最好的一切?你家莉卿可就幸福呢,还有人在你们出外工作时帮你们照顾莉卿。不过说到这就奇怪了,怎么你们请来的“保姆”是个男的啊?”

“咦!妈妈, 快来看电视!你看那个男的在摸那个女人的屁股。。。”

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“来!莉卿,进来!别怕!不会痛的。放轻松,不会有事的。你就乖乖地躺在床上。。。”

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“哎呀,莉卿!小孩子,不懂事,不要乱说话。。。王太,刚才我们聊到哪儿?噢!他是我的弟弟,刚刚大学毕业,还在找份工作。反正他闲着也是闲着,不如干脆叫他来我家帮忙照顾莉卿。现在先让他学着照顾小孩子,等他以后结了婚,生了小孩,照顾小孩就不会鸡手鸭脚的,才会顺手多嘛!再说,把自己的女儿交给自己人照顾比交给外人照顾还来得放心。至少我们能够相信自己的家人不会对我女儿乱来。”

“妈妈!来看电视!”

“嘿呀!莉卿!你没看到妈妈正和王太讲话吗?怎么你一直插嘴?真没礼貌!还有啊,你刚刚拔了牙,流了这么多血,还是少讲话,少动嘴巴,以免影响伤口!”

“妈!快来看电视!快点,快点!”

“咳哟。。。有什么好看的。。。哎呀!呸!呸!呸!怎么电视台在这个时候播这么露骨的电影?!莉卿,还不把电视给关掉,赶快回房去?真是的,明天我就打电话给报馆投诉。。。”

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“来!莉卿,进来!别怕!不会痛的。放轻松,不会有事的。你就乖乖地躺在床上,张开嘴巴。。。来,啊。。。张开嘴巴。。。”

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“妈!为什么电视里的那个男人要摸那个女人的屁股?那个女人已经很漂亮了,不需要跟我一样要变成白雪公主。。”

“莉卿!你在胡说些什么?我们家有客人在,你别在这里丢人现眼,别乱说话!”

“是舅舅说的。。他每次都说,只要他摸我的屁股,我就会变漂亮,而且是跟白雪公主一样漂亮呢!”

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“来!莉卿,进来!别怕!不会痛的。放轻松,不会有事的。你就乖乖地躺在床上,张开嘴巴。。。来,啊。。。张开嘴巴吃棒棒糖咯。。。用力地吃,用力地吸。。记得你回家不可以跟妈妈说牙医叔叔请你吃棒棒糖,因为妈妈知道了回那藤条打你哦!”

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