Some of those who read my blog responded to me that my blog is not bitchy enough.
They demand for more bitchiness to be instilled in my entries.
Why must I be bitchy in my entries?
Just because I am one with such a character in real-life does not justify that I have to be the same in the virtual world.
Why must you deny my chance of displaying my intellectual maturity?
I know that I may appear childish sometimes in front of you guys, and I boldly admit this fact that I am indeed a childish 16 year-old, but that doesn't necessarily mean that I am always so. I do possess some degree of maturity within me, and my only platform to showcase it is through blogging.
However, what you guys expect from my blog is more of my bitchiness.
Some may rebutt that I should not awkwardly and artificially put up another front and should just "be myself", but the truth is, I am a multi-faceted person, which explains why I am an "interesting" person to be with. ;) I have different sides in me; I have emotions, thoughts, and I have found meaning in myself. Unlike many of you out there, who are clueless about what you are doing or what you are going to do. You just do things without any aims or targets, or worse still, without knwoing what you are exactly doing. You guys are just mere boring and meaningless people. You just want regularity; you cannot tolerate any disruptions made to your normal routine, which therefore explains why you would want to see/read the same old me even in this virtual world.
However, I am who I am. I don't enjoy regularity, although too much changes in the little world of mine is certainly not appreciated. I do crave for a little "topsy-turviness" in my world. I don't like my life to be as smooth-sailing as the MRT trains in Singapore. Rather, I would want it to resemble a roller-coaster -- though there may be ups and downs, but at least it's thrilling and the journey would certainly be memorable and enjoyable when the ride eventually ends.
That's why, I don't choose to be the same old me again when I am blogging. Although I do at times bitch and whine a bit on my blog, most of the time I had chosen not to do that, because it would be so boring for me to be bitchy again on my blog after one whole day of bitching with you guys in school.
Having blabbered for so much, I don't know how much of what I had just written you would understand. But I hope that all of you can know is that: Yes I agree I am bitchy, but I dont have to be one all day. I would be sick and tired of being bitchy everytime as well!
